I’m struggling so badly right now, I don’t know if there’s a shift in energies but I went from okay to not okay in a matter of hours. I’m relying on my higher power, using my tools, but I’m just struggling with my mindset. I feel like it may be depression rearing it’s ugly face in my life again which would suck. I was getting used to not having to deal with it again but now I’m dealing with it and it’s just too much. I slept for 24 hours between Saturday night and through today. If it wasn’t for my nieces coming to my house for homeschooling I wouldn’t have gotten up today.
I’m glad I have my mental health appointment today, I’m here right now and I can’t wait to get in there and just let it all out. Whatever all of it is. I keep having this feeling in my gut that something is not right. I don’t trust it though because my energy is off. So I’m just laying in wait- waiting this feeling out. I am leaving on Saturday morning until Saturday the 8th for Vermont, I can’t wait to be in nature. I can’t wait to see my sister. Being in her presence is so comforting for me, I feel truly safe and loved. She knows how I feel without me having to open my mouth or talk. She knows how to make me feel better without prying or forcing things.
Counting the days… Vermont is almost here.
Day by Day 