Lies
I know you’re lying to me
I feel it in every part of my body tonight
My intuition not insecurity..prompting me to ask “where have you been? More than 6 hours have gone by.”
I know you won’t be honest if I get the strength to ask
So I’ll shut myself off to you a little more emotionally instead.
I can’t imagine you with somebody else sitting in your car
But the shit has been going lately I know you and I aren’t gonna make it very far.
Because even though you say shit to me with humor in your voice. When I say I trust you- you reply with you shouldn’t. Followed by a laugh- I tell my heart you’re only being coy.
But everyday I realize more that I’m just your sweet attention giving toy.
But I’m so much more than that baby- I wont fight for you tonight but two weeks ago I would’ve fought for you
But I’ve learned a lesson in what it means to have poise.
I’ll keep discarding your subtle jabs as just noise. Until the day comes that your noise is no longer my first choice. I won’t mute you anymore- I’ll just flip the channel with no remorse.
That’ll be the day that you actually want to entertain my hopes, dreams, and poetry I’ve written and collected for you in my head.
What you don’t understand about me is that I’ll keep giving chances until your lies and inconsistency cloud the picture I have framed of you in the deepest recesses of my head.
Every time you don’t reply- every time you think you’re sly- every time you tell me that this girl at work wants to take a bite- is just another blemish to the picture I’ve created. Till the last one I can tolerate leaves your ever twisting portrait devastated
On the floor of the deepest recess of my brain in disrepair – that’ll be the day that you’re the only one pain.
Day by Day 