Untitled: my lover’s tragic and secret pain

I’m laying in my bed tonight

The way my body feels tells me so many things are wrong

Tonight you dropped a bomb on me and retreated somewhere out of reach

Usually our souls are linked and I can feel you anywhere

But tonight the tie that binds us feels like it’s in disrepair

My heart races as I panic

The severity of your tragic condition…

the pain you feel becomes distorted and absorbed… through the molecules and atoms that make up the body that holds the being I adore.

An aesthetic turned into the sword your unrelenting brain strikes you and unleashes it’s tarry poison and taints your energy reserve.

Every mental cut festering and spreading emotional decay.

I’m worried about you and I’m losing sleep… I hope the unforgiving darkness of the night gives my baby back.

I want to live a life where she stands next to me-

We’re both vibrating at our designated frequency

Behind us the perfect storms that shaped us

Focused on the light we end up living in…

I’m terrified tonight but I’m sending love and light from bed. Praying to the universe for your mental protection and emotional care.