Sunflower state of mind
Laying in my bed and smiling to myself – if I could write a book of my past lovers – there’d be multiple volumes collecting dust up on my shelf.
Stories of broken dreams and punctured hearts- You’ve always been a better friend; now a better lover.
We’ve spilled countless tears on our past others.
Sleepless nights, petty fights, and we’ve both had an illicit tryst with attempted suicide.
But when I look into your eyes- I see so many options-
I dream of all the possible alternatives of the life we’ve yet to live.
In my youth I spent my time chasing tragic unrequited love- short, intense, painful, the reason for my next creative breakthrough.
How do I tell the love of my life that this poem took me effort and time?
That its sat on my mind because I could not fathom words that could describe the evolution of us.
I must’ve tried to start this a hundred times
The memory of the first time I felt your lips on mine and the way you seem to shine when you’re enveloped in sunset light.
How proud I feel to watch you love Natalia and her big bright eyes.
A necessary miracle during seemingly endless dark times.
I admire your unwavering faith in Gods plan
All the ways you’ve fallen and every time learned how to stand.
All the toxic isms that pollute the world around you
Even through the angry sad and lonely tears your smile remains true.
That’s how I know it’s all for you.
Day by Day 