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Self Love: an epic

That’s why I have taken this vow of celibacy and no dating. The celibacy thing is tentative…. I’m gonna try for six months and then a year. I want to be loved and love again eventually- I want to love myself so that I can believe it when someone else tells me. I want to root out that rot that sits inside of me still this next year… I want to nourish my platonic relationships and nourish my village. I want to nourish my soul— I want to fall in love and date myself for a bit. I’m thrilled and terrified at the same time. Continue reading Self Love: an epic

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Self love: an epic

I: This feels like shit and I really wanna do what I’ve always done cause it’s easy and familiar Since … Continue reading Self love: an epic

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Going with the flow: an account of how much I’ve actually changed.

I was walking around with the heavy weight of shame, guilt, distrust in myself, low self esteem, and this insatiable urge to fuck but I wanted to fuck a woman. I was walking on egg shells at home because of the damage I had caused my last spree before I went to jail. Continue reading Going with the flow: an account of how much I’ve actually changed.